Generally, I tend to focus on smaller creators, their qualities are usually better.

The channels I watched include Nitro Rad (gaming), MattKC (tech), and Modern Vintage Gamer (retro console/gaming).

Honestly, because of my interest, as you can tell from my instance’s name and purpose. It’s the first furry instance I see and also the most popular one, that’s the initial reason.

Some browser supports blocking videos from autoplaying, Firefox is one of them but maybe chrome has similar options too. Check the browser settings.

Nothing major, but I have a few small moments where I feel euphoric, even if I’m usually shroud in dysphoria. It’s like a ray of hope in a dark cave. At least it helped me think twice whenever I wanted to just fully repress.

I have quite a few recommendations. They are not quite non-freemium since they are free, but if your reason to prefer non-freemium is to avoid ads and in app purchases, then none of these games have them. They are all also open source and the link I provided below will be for their respective F-Droid version (note: some of these games are not available on Google Play Store):

• Simon Tatham’s Puzzle - A collection of many puzzle games ported to Android. The puzzles include Minesweeper, Net, Sudoku, and more.
• Simple Solitaire Collection - As the name says, it’s a collection of card-based Solitaire games.
• Simple Brick Games - A game that imitates very basic handheld with very small pixel count. Games include tetris, breakout, and more.
• 1010 Klooni - A puzzle game where you have to use various shaped blocks to fill an entire horizontal or vertical line.
• Tower Jumper - This is a clone of a popular android game in which you move a jumping ball and try to reach the end of a tower avoiding the obstacles.
• Ball2Box - A puzzle game about shooting a ball into the box.
• Anuto - Another ugly tower defense.

This particular game requires far more attention and strategy than the ones listed above, but it can be played once every few minutes if you constantly save and reload (just don’t play online):

• Unciv - 4X civilization-building game, similar to Sid Meier’s Civilization series.

Basically phone speakers at home, earbuds while away. As basic as you can get.

Ori and the blind forest, a hat in time, deltarune. It’s amazing how good videogame soundtrack can get!

It’s not so much already on my mind.

I didn’t spend too much effort when choosing the name while Playing Stardew; it was the first name that clicked, and never in a million year I’d think to use that name for myself.

But I oversimplified it. Truth is, I also had quite a few other names on my mind when choosing my name specifically, Jasmine’s one of them. It took me a week before I settled on Jasmine and even more weeks before I was fully confident it’s the right name.

The story of how I got my name was both interesting and mundane.

I played a videogame named Stardew Valley and created a female character there. I don’t really think about it much when choosing her name, I just wanted a plant-related feminine name so I chose Jasmine.

Many weeks later, my egg cracked and I randomly chose Jasmine as my new name. Later that day, I realized that the name was the same as my Stardew character.

Yes, it is perfectly okay to transition in any way that you want. It does not make you selfish. You don’t “owe it to your culture” to continue repressing by pretending to be something that you’re not. There is nothing wrong with being trans, and there is nothing wrong with you being yourself.

You’re right. Maybe there’s a reason “going against your culture and parents to do the right thing” is a common trope, and we consider the charactes who did it hero instead of villain.

Still, it’d be hard to reprogram decades of anti-trans stance brought on from my culture, even more so when it’s still proliferating and as things gets worse for us.

As for tackling your internalized transphobia, I would encourage you to stop intentionally seeking out transphobic content online - as you have already identified it is a form of digital self-harm.

It’s easy for me to avoid them most of the time, but it’s very hard when my mood is low. Worse, most of my transphobia nowadays comes from my head, not contents from the internet. I can’t exactly turn off my brain to avoid thinking of transphobic thoughts…

block yourself from going there if the impulse is too strong.

A good number of transphobia I had is from anti-trans laws news, which I find easily from most trans communities. When I hear transphobic laws passed, I tried my best to justify them even though I didn’t agree with them. It’s like I’m putting effort to become transphobic, even though deep down I don’t want to.

I would recommend talking with an LGBT+ friendly therapist if you are in a position to see one.

I think I might if things get worse, but there’s practically no LGBT friendly therapists around, nor do I have the money to see one.

Maybe I can contact a trans friendly hotline if they operate worldwide. Maybe like the trevor project or something like that.

I always shied away from anything trans because I thought so many cultures are opposed to us. But you’re right, in a vacuum, I would me more than happy to be a girl, at least a part of me (we’re a bit plural). I think I should not stop dreaming to be a girl one day.

I feel that it’s wrong to go against everyone, so selfish. Then again, there’s a reason that defying what your culture say is a common trope in movies. Think of Moana, Cinderella, Romeo and Juliet, or even Aladdin.

If your culture is transphobic, you are allowed to just ignore or reject the bigoted parts (or any other parts you have no interest in) and be the woman you want to be (and are).

I know, but… idk… it still feels wrong. I’ve been taught for a very long time that trans people have no place in my culture, and that it is my duty to uphold my masculinity. I know I’m wrong, but it’s really hard to deprogram yourself after years of being taught.

I guess more exposure to trans culture will help, but it’s hard when even interacting with the trans community feels wrong. Maybe you know a way to make it easier?

But, I’ll be honest, my biggest problem right now is just how much I’ve tried to seek out transphobic content lately, it’s almost like a form of self harm. It’s even worse when I internalized and accepted the transphobic things I’ve found.

Of course, it’s harmful, and I’ve tried my best to stop myself from looking at transphobic content. But, in a way, I keep coming back for no reason.

I just wanted a way to stop myself from thinking and accepting transphobic stuff within. Maybe you know a way to help me stop looking at transphobic content as a form of self harm?

Hi Xenia! Welcome here!

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Pretty much every instance have defederated from at least one other instance, especially towards instances that hosts illegal images, ones with lackluster moderations, instances that support views they consider dangerous, ones filled with spam bots, and yes, sometimes out of drama or politics.

It’s more of a question of which instances they defederated from and why.

When you’re a swashbuckling pirates in the lawless seven seas, you gotta come up with clever ways to enforce your ship’s code of conduct.

I assume we’re talking about spam bots, not bots whose entire purpose is to reupload content from elsewhere into here (i.e. reddit reposter bot).

Most likely, spam. Spam and scam has been quite a problem on Mastodon, so I wouldn’t be surprised if bad actors want to bring them here.

With the vast majority of Lemmy users being refuges from Reddit, it’s easy to see why “Reddit ded” circlejerk is strong. It’s the most relatable thing to everyone here, as nearly everyone here can relate. Not to mention it’s the only thing that unites us as it is the only thing we have in common, regardless of which community you used to belong to on Reddit.

But, I do see those posts less and less. As time went by, I’m sure people will move on from the circlejerk (probably to another circlejerk, but at least they do move on).

When it comes to the lack of content, that’s due to the lower number of users. It’s hard to say if whether it’ll get better as it depends on which kinds of content you are looking for.

But if you want more content, try sorting by new. Reddit death content will usually get more upvotes as it relates to more people than any other content, but the “new” sorting should eliminate this bias.

To be fair, “cis” comes from latin which means “on the same side of,” in contrast to “trans” which means “on the other side of.”

Why use that instead of non-trans? I don’t know, but yeah, I don’t think the word is a slur.

People feel that “cis” is a slur because it puts them on equal footing with trans people.

They prefer to consider themselves “normal” while “trans” people the weird ones whom can only be labelled with anything other than “normal.” Being called “cis” makes them feel as if they can also be labelled as something other than “normal.”

This seems to be a specific post problem, as I find this issue only replicable on one specific post and nowhere else.

I presume it’s because the post has different language from “undetermined”