Sorry, its me, I’m the loser who’s algorithm is pulling these creators towards spending the whole day with me I’m lonely

Congrats! You’re valid and you deserve to know that for yourself in your heart.

I’m sorry this happened and I’m trans so Ive certainly noticed how tough healthcare settings are for me, just getting basic care and being a family member. It does sound like you are so invested in this job, just absolutely obsessed with it. I’m not sure I’ve ever heard of this kind of excited mover and shaker type person in healthcare. From what Ive heard, it’s more militaristic - stay within your role, follow the chain of command. Follow the medical and legal protocol or your superior is getting called, whom is actually responsible for all of your actions. Nightmare on the inside sounds familiar.

Hiya. Yes you can have some girlhood and some cringe. People of all ages are awkward and clumsy and cringe and try different styles!

I’m 26 and yea this is pretty relatable. Silly belts lol.

Thats so awesome! Congrats!

Hey I’m a trans female and find this exact experience with porn very relatable. Always imagined myself as the female, really got used to a few make porn stars for being in the scenes I like.

I personally an averse to hypno but I was also interested in “sissy” content at some point.

Have you tried looking at fashion? Fashion, or even cosplay content can bring me a similar “I wanna be her” type of urge that I get when watching porn.

You’re worthy of friendship. You could have some great friends. Probably not gonna meet them at work. I can’t give much advice, I’m pre-HRT, pre-work and education, looking at a similar path that you have taken and hoping I can achieve the things you’ve achieved. Take it easy on yourself, look what all you’ve done and find people you can relate to and whose company is a gift to yourself.

This is a powerful discovery, I’m proud of you, that you did this for yourself and that you’re ready to make more changes to feel great again and again.

I’m pretty sure the people who still use Twitter use it for the drama. Mastodon and Bluesky just aren’t as spicy to them. Hell, Mastodon takes setting up to even get anything interesting.

A surprisingly high number of leftists still use it as well.

My initial position was that AI art would be exciting when a more carefully curated training data is used. … But after some talking with friends, I think we’re living in a world that has minimal respect for copyright already, except when a corporation has a problem with it and wants to bring down the hammer of the law.

It does hurt and its easy to be emotional about artists’ livelihoods being threatened by AI, they aren’t the only laborers threatened by job loss to automation, but this one hurts the most.

So now its just up to AI and artists to make interesting art with it. And for artists to adapt to this environment that has automated art tools.

I’m sure you’ve heard this but just to reiterate, I’m super excited for this and I’m proud of you

Like I care. Amazon bought it, they have a monopoly, hey maybe these consumer facing startups would be more profitable if all the money wasnt already distributed so unevenly?

Awesome! I’ll be checking it out, I love live streams and hate Twitch, got burnt out of the platform after watching for ~8 years.

The feminine version of my first name isnt to my liking, but my parents gave me a male and female name during pregnancy and the female name is a good fit for me, I think. I’m like 80% sure.

Its been good but its been better. Im trying to reach a stable point with my home environment, and I’m getting really close. I probably have the same goals as many others in this thread and I dotn even wanna talk about it lest I jinx it, which I guess is what happened last year around this same date, I don’t really know.

Owie I think it will get better yea

I’m so proud of you, I hope this is the sweetest time for your life.

Thats the “nice guy” argument. Its transactional for them, not me. Im taking stock of how many people I can remember being especially randomly nice to, and wonder if I could have made a friend.

Wow they should reach out to me. Being randomly nice to people doesn’t actually give me a whole lot of social capital. Thats because it is a people pleasing behavior, and leaves one more vulnerable to social problems. I think, basically you feel you’re putting the effort in, but its spread out among many targets.

I think its a similar lack of social understanding to “nice guys” who expect you to be interested in them for their niceness. Right? And then they aren’t nice when it doesnt work. Well I am genuinely nice, but it still doesnt pay off, because being interesting to keep as company isnt just being randomly nice to people.