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Cake day: July 5th, 2023

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    1. I’m a good person.
    2. Being a good person means I hate bad people.
    3. The people who are against me are bad, because I’m a good person.
    4. Trump hates all the people I hate and is a strong male leader, so I follow him.
    5. The only people who would attack him (read: me) are bad people.
    6. People complain and produce false charges when they are afraid of their enemies and need to take them down.

    Conclusion: I identify more strongly with Trump for being attacked for being right by bad people.

    The sad thing is that, short of taking a mental sledgehammer to some really important internal concepts of self-esteem and value, you can’t stop this train of thought, and you’ll upset them for even suggesting it’s what they think. The closest you can get is putting in their heads the sense that Trump won’t win, in which case they’ll glom onto the next narcissistic, reactionary blowhard.

    If you want some more detailed dissection of this thought process, read “The Authoritarians” by Bob Altmeyer: https://archive.org/details/The_Authoritarians_Bob_Altemeyer_2006.pdf/page/n2/mode/1up

    It’s an easy read, but damn if it wasn’t chilling the first time I read it, back in the Obama years.





  • When I was younger…well, there were only Palm Pilots back then, so it’s a bit unfair, but I’d prefer physical books, and if I were doing active reading then it’d usually be with a physical book.

    Reading digital books now requires using a device that often has access to Youtube or something else that’s shorter and snappier and yet pulls hours upon hours out of my life.

    And as I’ve gotten older…I haven’t read read a book in years. Is it a lack of attention span? Yes, which makes me feel sad and ashamed and so fucking frustrated because I could, I could read long books as a kid and now…I can’t.

    It’s also that I have more to do: laundry, cleaning, work, cooking, errands, exercise… So there’s less time to sit down and read, or if I do, it feels increasingly hedonistic and therefore wrong to just do one thing at once. If I can multitask then shouldn’t I?

    Audiobooks are both a godsend and a curse. I can actually consume books again! But I’m locked into the ease of it.

    Actively choosing to doing just the one thing, for myself, is far harder than it ought to be.


  • I got to a really early point in Dune where a character was thinking about the various ways to be manipulative (not necessarily evil, just politicking) with their expressions and words and body language and I just got tired of it.

    Also gave up on Wuthering Heights. Was it revolutionary in its day to draw back the gilded curtain and display naked domestic abuse for what it was? Sure. But…I don’t need that curtain drawn away, as I’ve seen far better depictions of DV, and, well, I go out in public, too. So it was just tedious bitching and being cruel to each other until I stopped reading.