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Awe! Thank you so much, rose!
Awe! Thank you so much, rose!
I keep all my old photos, every once in a while I’ll be talking to someone about things and decide I want to see a chronically depressed cadaver go through the motions of… I don’t even really know what… just tons of pictures.
I got pictures of me blackout drunk staring disdainfully in a mirror, pictures of me trying to feign happiness in hundreds of locations at Disney World, pictures documenting the all day drinking and running through the woods at full bore on a 4 wheeler hoping I’d just smash my skull into a tree and die, the daily fire I would make when it was too dark to keep driving drunk through the woods and spend my nights getting more drunk hoping I’d pass out and get killed by wolves.
Sure, If it was life or death I could find a smile or a happy photo, but almost all of them are stoic at best and I’m going to keep them.
That poor fuck held on for something, and in his misery he gave me a life worth living, and for that he deserves his respect and honors. I cannot hate him or erase him. He hurt for so long, he wanted an undying death, and I myself gave him his wish.
Of course, you should do what is best for you, I just have been diving a bit too far into how the Ship of Theseus problem intersects with my identity and personality here lately and have decided I literally AM a different person and that’s okay and consistent with me being the same person I always was, just with less repression.
‘cause right now all we have is time, time, time, and someday that time will run out, that’s the only thing we can be absolutely certain about.
I’m on hormones, just sucks having to deal with the feelings and knowing it’s a waiting game.
At least I’m doing something though.
In between desperate gasping for air worth breathing and times worth living
Pat the Bunny
My brother has an OSRS account he named post rave blues, certainly relatable.
It’s all good there is no advice.
Thank you for the kind words about my writing style. It’s been a new compulsion of mine to document things. Everyone always told me to journal, but I didn’t see the point documenting the things I was desperately seeking any escape from.
I’m definitely lacking the foot ware. Most of my shoes were leather boots, about 5 months ago I branched out and got some khaki sneakers and some white sneakers.
Thanks Ellie, kind of a radical idea that I deserve a life worth living.
I’ll have to remember that
Sounds like the unspoken idea is you name the roach after your ex
Awe, thanks.
I get my glasses from Zenni Optical. I got some more feminine Prescription glasses and feminine sunglasses for $120 usd, they’re cheap enough that I can get random pairs and the virtual try on + feature on phones is amazing, realtime AR the frames on your face, desktop has an okay version that extracts frames from a webcam video and overlays the frames. Helped me pick some out I knew I’d like.
It was as good a time as it could be ☺️
Thanks
Well, in the linked comment, on the second line where it says to import the converted epub into editing software like sigil,there was a link to a piece of software called sigil, it’s for editing EPUB files, and it’s called sigil. It’s the second link in the comment that takes you to the EPUB editor software called sigil.
I have been tempted to upload them for others to use, but all the authors that I’ve done it for are really small niche community authors, and I do not want to take support away from them.
Just because I’m a broke ass bitch and have decided to re-copy them however I see fit for my personal consumption, doesn’t necessarily mean I want to become a bootlegger publisher.
I’ve been doing it for years to my personal books I download that I can’t find in ePub, I have no issues with my sanity. I also usually do this before I read the book, and double check my editing as I read it. 98% of the time I caught all the errors that were not present in the original text (it copies typos perfectly) .
I would like to do something like that but I don’t want to be scrutinized about technically being a bootleg publisher.
The books I did it to are from small authors writing for niche communities and I don’t want to make it easier to pirate than buy in that case. Anyone else can find those same PDFs on a website easy to search and well recommended by the community so the information is available, and if they want an ePub they can format it themselves or just buy the version from Amazon and support the author.
”Do a light editing “ You mean read through a huge book?
No, I mean use your eyes to see if there are any obvious breaks in the text, most of the time they’re repeated and follow a pattern that is easily searched and every instance replaced with a button press.
You now have the book on EPUB to be placed in your personal cloud or whatever.
You can easily convert pdf files to epub then do a little light editing to make sure you don’t have weird artifacts like page numbers the book name or author name. I can process a pdf to epub in 20 minutes at most (most are a minute it two) for average novel length, which I understand is a big ask for lots of folks but it’s worth it to me to have the file in a format that I can keep and use on pretty much anything.
Well, the lady I take care of is going on hospice care, so it’s not great per se. Nothing new from my family and I probably won’t see them. I have a dental appointment on the 19th that’s gonna cost 6.5 grand usd without sedation and 8.1 grand with sedation. No clue how I’m gonna pay that all, my dad said he’d help with some of it, but I gotta find the rest at some point. It’s my wisdom teeth and two molars they broke, plus bone grafts and stuff.
Well, I don’t have any advice per se, but feel free to read through some of my post history for how my mom has handled it through stages (it didn’t go over well at first). I mean, it’s still not great (she called me Mrs. Doubtfire when I was talking about cleaning the house) but it’s better than I expected.
I haven’t told my dad just yet, he’s hinted at just wanting me to be happy in my journey, but who really knows.
Yeah… I suppose it’s been a while since I’ve watched them with my eyes instead of my ears, so I just queued it up. Why did they decide to cast the ligonians like that 👀? I knew it wasn’t a good one, but jeez. Anyway, it’s like the 4th episode of the whole series, and considered the 2nd worst piece of Star Trek in total.
Thank you ❤️