im sad and have noone to talk to about it… except for wifey, and two friends… but this is about one of the two friends, and they are friends with each other too… and telling wifey about it always leads to me feeling worse because she’ll say clever things like “just talk to him about it” …
i dont want to talk to him about it, that would mean i would have to acknowledge the problem and address it directly.
what a silly way to deal with emotional turmoil, am i right?
no i know im not right… i wouldnt be posting this crap if i knew i was right. i know im wrong and i should talk to him about it but i just cant ;_;
yeah… i know you must be thinking i need therapy and you would be absolutely right, except i hate going to the doctor and them being a special type of doctor for the mind and such doesnt make my detestation for docs any better.
sorry this really isnt about me being transfem. i AM transfem, but that doesnt have anything to do with the rest of it… except i cut off most people i knew even before i transitioned… just because they would no longer be part of my daily life. which sucks but i guess i did this to myself so serves me right.
anyway, im sad, tired, nostalgic and have no point. thanks for reading ._.
Hey, it’s OK to not be OK. You’re avoiding your problems because it’s easier than fixing them. That’s normal, but it’s also not the healthiest option available to you.
What works for me is to make appointments. Put time on your calendar for everything. Schedule a time to call the doctor and make an appointment for therapy. Set aside time to make plans with the people you want to see. Schedule a lunch with your friends and talk to them.
Making appointments tricks your brain into thinking it’s out of your control, you have to make this call now because it’s on the schedule. You need to ignore the ADHDemon that whispers in your ear to have a coffee and binge Netflix instead.