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  • Yes it does suck on your end but on the other side of the phone your perspective date is probably having a whole mental breakdown about it. For a lot of trans folk disclosure is absolutely nessisary as early as possible and preferably for safety reasons not when you are face to face…

    Buuuut they also are very likely to get really vile transphobic backlash from a perspective date as much as they are honest rejections based on genital preference which sucks to be rejected for but is nobody’s fault. There’s a lot of trans people out there who feel like they are never going to be given a chance. Either way steeling themselves for one form of rejection or a vile reminder of the awful people out there who think you are subhuman and are offered up a nice juicy target on which to let loose their bigotry does tend to make for disordered social niceties. Once someone has been burned enough they get pretty damn shy and the procrastination is more of a case of battling personal traumas until the last possible second where one absolutely must do the right thing.

    I would advise not taking it too personally.



  • As a Socialist that subscribes more to the historical strain of Saint Simone and Robert Owen that broke out and away early from Marxism to become the Chartist movement and the history of American non-Marxist socialism … I am often tired of how one note Tankies are. They seem obsessed with a sort of internal purity which denies a rich history of socialism other than Marx and Engles. Once one of them goes off about Stalinism or Maoism I basically just disengage because at that point they are basically so enamored with the aesthetics of communism that they aren’t going to be listening to anything. They want to be devout to the ideology while whitewashing the bloodstains of past failures. I understand a collectivist mindset is more or less what Marx aims to cultivate in his work but it seems often at the cost of tolerance of any level of apostasy.

    The flattening of a mass of political thought into cardboard cuttouts to snipe at and sneering at the range of Socialism hybrids with No True Scotsman flavour condescension as political ideologies simply not complete worldviews in their own right has got me rather depressed in dealing with the average Communist on here. People in general often just seem to want to find something simple and easy to hate.



  • A lot of it is applicable in many different places.

    Whenever someone holds something you desperately need out of reach unless you conform to their very specific formula to make that happen you end up with situations where bad system design alters people’s behavior to a specific degree. If you fail the test of being the correct sort of risk for the system to call “a success” your story doesn’t end or go on hold. If your conditions for living are to live on your terms you either have to find other ways to get around the system or you die. Misery is deadly and a lot of the problem with being trans under extremely stigmatized terms is that life sometimes doesn’t become a quest for happiness - it becomes a choice of which type misery is the most compatible.




  • As an incredibly and habitually nerdy kid none of my nerd shit had been an obstacle to my parents thinking I’m rad. I taught and ran my Mom through a D&D campaign over Covid…

    Also I don’t think a parent who adopts the 'Is your kid cool" mentality is looking to make it another vector to disparage kids but to open adults minds to actually appreciating their kids as people not just little self congratulatory vicarious vindication of success. My parents are not fans of my Brother-in-Law’s family because they refuse to look at their son and my sibling as success on any other metric than acedemic or career related successes. They look at their careers in slightly lower paid but fulfilling careers doing things they feel make the world a better place makes them “the dumbest smart people we know”… The fact their son is just fucking awesome in his own merits just never enters their heads (and makes my Mom mad enough to bite through steel.)

    Having parents who are cool is a blessing.




  • It’s become the habit of leftist spaces since the first sign of the poisoning of a space by the right is usually in the humor. The cycle of “Oh I was just saying this racist thing to be edgy, I didn’t mean to be serious!” to “Oh you’re too sensitive you’re ruining everyone’s fun” to driving vulnerable minorities out of spaces because it’s just bloody toxic to explain when something is sucky and courting vicious attacks for being “political” when trying to stick up for themselves thus making what remains hotbeds of ever deepening unironic racism/sexism/queerphobia etc… Yeah. It does mean that any spaces with leftists left in them tend to be very corrective in the way they engage with memes and jokes.

    I suppose it’s a little of a “this is how you get ants” situation in moderation.





  • Thank you, it’s my own weird headcannon. History is often very good at sweeping queerness under the rug particularly when someone is admired.

    I think it’s his fairly deep friendships with women that I wish I knew about. I know that for many of us there’s a sort of external recognition factor of “these are my people” where we best empathize and folks of our birth sex can feel a little alien by comparison. Misogyny can be a fairly limiting factor in self exploration though and the options available to women in his time were generally fairly dismal.


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    I have a bizarre and completely unprovable theory Leonardo Da Vinci was a trans woman based largely on a recognition of my own behaviours and desires as a trans person and the convoluted history of the Mona Lisa.

    Many people have posited that the picture, while supposedly a commissioned portrait of a patron, is actually a self portrait of the artist but your run of the mill scholarship tends to be a little stumped why he would do that… But look at the history of the painting and it was in his possession for a very long time “unfinished”. Layers of the painting show jewelry had been added and subtracted from the painting over time becoming more austere as both portait and painter aged. The title of the painting originally basically translated to “the happy one” supposedly for that enigmatic smile… but what if this painting was actually “the happy one” smiling at the artist who struggled in their own body gaining what wistful euphoria there was to be had meeting the eyes of his ideal physical form, carried around as a wish and temporary escape from the mirror.

    Da Vinci had a complicated sexuallity as we know it. As best we can figure he was repulsed by heterosexual intercourse but adored the male form sexually. He had a number of very strong friendships with women but he tended to not render their forms sexually in his art preferring to focus on male genetalia… But his art also featured numerous themes of sexes with poses, characteristics and so on intermixed into androgyny or with subversive femininity. He veiwed women as paragons of grace, dignity and quite frankly I think he pined for motherhood.

    As a trans person who has decided for reasons not to physically transition I know that wistfulness. Staring at the genderswap snapchat filters of yourself during a moment of low spirits or the pictures of youth where you actually properly passed as your gender and thinking “if only”.

    At the end of his life the Mona Lisa was not passed on to it’s supposed commissioner but instead to Leonardo’s long time apprentice and known gay lover. Perhaps a final sentimental bequeathal of a cherished object

    The more I read and see of the artist’s works and life the more I see a distinct queer identity emerge. Perhaps not worth much to scholarship but the idea that maybe the most popular and highly valued picture in the world could be of a trans woman’s encapsulated self conceptualization and the true self portrait of a genius hidden from veiw only by the veil of cis blindness that cannot recognize the distinct behaviour patterns and dearly held desires of trans people… Would be immensely satisfying.